Salam,
*Excuse for my very very very long post*
Jujur entry kali ni adalah one of my deepest feelings. Kira paling dalam lah yang buat aku gusar gila punya lately lepas tahu aku dapat Degree in F&D. Happy? Mestilah- ni yang aku nak dari Form 3 (Even aku dah start suka fashion since 12 tahun tapi dia betul betul rasa tu time Form 3 bila Cikgu Bahasa Melayu aku tanya,"So tahun ni awak dah PMR, awak kena decide nak jadi apa since tahun depan masuk Form 4 kan?". Semua orang jawab apa yang diorang nak dari cikgu sampai la ke chef. Tapi aku- instict aku kuat like no way aku nk cakap aku nak jadi doktor bila sebenarnya aku lembab science (UPSR B & PMR pun B, tapi nasib baik semua A- jujur SPM aku lingkup sebab ambil pure science lol) Dengan beraninya aku cakap, "saya nak jadi fashion designer cikgu" Even at that time around 2009 fashion bukan sesuatu yang popular dan tak banyak IPTA & IPTS tawarkan. Semua pandang aku- dah agak since i look nerd at time. Yelah fashion kan dikaitkan dengan glamor.
Note: I'm not choosing Fashion Designer because of famous and glamorous. Aku pilih subjek ni sebab aku rasa adanya segulung sarjana ataupun diploma martabat pendidikan akan lebih tinggi. Ya, menjahit- everyone simply can learn dekat khursus or classes. But bila kau ambil this course, kau boleh tahu what types fabric, jenis jahitan and one step from a sketches to real dress.
So cikgu aku suggest aku masuk uitm "Oh UiTM ada tawarkan kos fesyen" Perghh time tu aku rasa macam- seriouslah dekat Uni Malaysia ada tawarkan- gembira gila ok. So since that aku mcam bersemangatlah bila tahu eventhou ambil sains tulen lol. Lepas SPM aku still mcm nak ambil ke eh arts? Sebab ibu aku kata fashion boleh buat sebagai hobi and aku macam sedih la jugak sebab ur parent didn't support your interest. But my dad sangat cool. Even masa minta upu dia suruh ambil perhotelah- kira takdelah surul aku ambil all things that demanded to be a professional career. But sadly result aku teruk SPM- chemist, physics dengan addmath aku lingkup (nangis tiada berguna). And ibu aku suruh masuk KPTMKL sebab cousin aku pun ambil situ branch under uitm. Kira semua benda kau belajar ikut UITM punya.\
So i went there and finished my diploma on April this year- the great things about this bersekutu you can still hv campus and further study dekat Uitm. So kira 1 month before final dorang akan buka la penerapan (mean boleh minta further deg and tolak credit hour if nk sambung sama course. Kira kalau aku nak ambil akaun then my deg will be just 2 years. But i decided nak sambung course lain. Yeap mereputs hahaha) So at that time, aku macam i know i can't afford to further Account with my not so proud cgpa and even if aku dapat idk if i can survive sebab masa diploma pun dah macam nyawa2 ikan every sem lol
So i called my mom asked for her opinion if i can changed my course to Fashion and my dad tk payah call sebab he know what i want. And i asked Alya (bff kinda lol) is it a right choice? Anmd alya support me because she knows macam mana aku call dia nangis2 cakap i can't afford to carry account subject ha ha ha. Thanks Alya- i owned you this past 3 years. Serious cakap aku punya excited nak isi form macam budak baru lepas spm nk further study, sebab aku rasa macam OMG i can choose what i want without being bothered by anyone opinion! (eventhou ada some friends of mine cakap why should i waste my time smbung degree yang lain- it will take times to graduate. And dorang cakap my course susah dapat kerja. I know but if you can see on the bright side. There always a chances for everyone. Rezeki Allah kan luas? Orang belajar engineer, doctor, accountant susah2 belum tentu dapat kerja on the spot kan? Doesnt mean my course tak related with professional; anymore tak bermaksud i can have goo job, salary and future. Biasalah mentality malaysian- everything goes with grades blergh)
I choose fashion and design as my first choice in Uitm even berat jugak hati ni sebab tukar course Hahaha. But alhamdulillah a couple of month after dapat result i got an interview for art course that i apply and my parent sent me there. Cuak dia tak payah cakap. It was freakin nerve-wrecking. I will tell how my experiences on the next post (which will take bit of time since dah nak sambung belajar in 2 weeks and i still didnt prepared anything yet sebab still kerja lol). So yeah and alhamdulillah, i got the course and sangatlah takut sebab i have zero knowledge. Perasaan tu macam ambil diploma dulu- zero knowledge about all the credit and debit.
Untuk kepada yang doa for my acceptances kat dalam Uitm thank you very much- to all yang support about my decision about changing my course and possibly i graduated my degree maybe will be the same like wanie but younger sister. I can't wait that time comes and proudly said"-
"Hold your dreams tightly, it might hard, it might take a long journey, it might have a lot of obstacles, crazy journey but at the end it's worthy. Allah will always help the way out.
For everyone yang still holding your dreams, yang takut what peoples said- ignore it sebab manusia tak pernah puas with everything- anything yg related dengan diri diorang ataupun orang lain. Niat baik, Allah tolong. jangan risau okay.
Salam.
